We Don't Need to Talk

Cloud Atlas,

       I left out the 'Dear' because it'd make me feel like I'm writing a 'Dear John' letter. And I don't want to feel that at all. I drafted most of this letter in my head a little less than 12 hours ago. I don't remember much so forgive me if this letter seems...disjointed. I'm not even sure if that's the right word. I don't care enough to see if it is.

       I thought that it would be different the second time around (it was when I had reread Catcher in the Rye) but it was still the same. I couldn't enjoy reading you no matter how hard I tried. Perhaps, to enjoy you (or at least reach the final page), one must have an open-mind. I tarnished mine by reading your wiki page, watching the movie trailer, listening to the sextet, creating unrealistic expectations.
     
       I wanted to read you for so long. And you're not even here. I returned you to the library just yesterday. I hope another reader would read you, and enjoy it. Because I certainly didn't.

       I'm not exactly sure on why I couldn't enjoy you. I am so very much in love with the concept. The idea of reincarnation and lives and fates being intertwined. I love stories like that. I want more stories like that. Maybe I was never supposed to read you. I don't think I'll read you again. At least not in the near future.

      I got it now. I don't care about your characters. I couldn't find anything in them that would make me sympathize with them. I didn't care for their struggles, their stories. My favorite story was of Robert Frobisher. And he was a jerk. So I didn't like him very much.

     Was it because they weren't teenagers? I remember reading a book that had an adult's point of view and I loved it. He ended up being my favorite character.

     He was a statue.

     So now I'm going through Goodreads to find any book that has an adult pov. I can multitask. There was The Name of the Wind. I didn't like it very much. Encyclopedia of an Ordinary Life was okay. Thought it was boring most of the time but I got through. 1Q84 was a nightmare to read. Took me about four months. It was okay. The ending still sucks.

     So is it me????? Is this my fault???? I couldn't enjoy you because there wasn't any chapters in a teenager's pov???

     I can't believe this, do you know how much this would limit me??? WHAT IF THIS STAYS??? WHAT IF I GROW UP TO BE IN MY THIRTIES AND ALL I CAN READ ARE YOUNG. ADULT. BOOKS. 

    Excuse me, I'm going to go reexamine myself.

I Wouldn't Mind Being Shocked to Remind Myself of All the Deadlines I Have

04/29/2014

Lately I've been, I've been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that I can write other than a book review.

I don't want to talk about endings anymore. I'm over that. I've been over that since last (last) Thursday when I stayed up 'til one in the morning to finish this one book and got my heart crushed ten pages before it ended.

Last Two weeks ago, I created a draft of this one post that was supposed to be a soundtrack to a book I'm sure some of you are familiar with if you had read my blog all the back in first tri, number9dream, and I was really excited about it too until I realized I don't know any songs!!!! Songs that I can apply to number9dream anyway, and that realization was a crushing blow to me because I Love Music.

I love sharing music with peers. I love turning up my volume to the max. to fully appreciate the vocals, the instruments, and the beat. I love falling to sleep to music. I love staying up at night to listen to music even though it kills me later in school.

But since I didn't have any songs for last (last) week, I'm now a (really two) post(s) behind. I'm not even sure on what to write for this week.

Oh well.

Right now, I'm currently reading Cloud Atlas by David Mitchell (also the author of number9dream) and this book is so different from what I usually read because all the characters, with the exception of one, are reincarnations of the same soul.

05/06/2014

I don't know if I honestly believe in reincarnation but the idea of it had always fascinated me. Imagine if reincarnation was a thing and you remember every single life you had before. That would mess me up. That would mess me up real bad.

Cloud Atlas is really different from Mitchell's other work, number9dream. I can breeze through number9dream at any time but I'm struggling with Cloud Atlas. The best thing about number9dream is that it's really easy to read. I'm not saying that it has really simple diction and all stuff. It's just that it's a fast-paced read. It's as smooth as its cover (which is pretty dang smooth considering that it's a paperback).

I stumble over the words of Cloud Atlas. And what makes it worse is that every chapter is different in writing style than the previous one.

It's arranged weirdly too. You would get Person A, then B, then C, D, E. And then F. Then E, D, C, B, A. That's going to mess me up. That's going to mess me up real bad.

Perhaps I would watch the movie instead. It looks promising.