DO I KEEP
DOING THIS
TO MYSELF
So I'm on page 80 and there's already CANNIBALISM and I'm just thinking to myself, 'Yah know, you should be used to this already I mean really, how many apocalyptic books have you read already?' And Ijust-
Well, brain's got a point there.
This book's been sitting in my pile of borrowed library books for awhile now and I had decided to finally start reading today and so far...I don't really regret it. Alex is a cool girl and Ellie is an annoying little eight year-old who reminds me of how much I really don't like bratty children (I had threaten to jump into the book and dropkick her into the sun). Ellie's getting better though, thank you Ms. Bick.
Page: 110
EVEN THE DOGS ARE EVIL (nah, they're just hungry) BUT STILLSometimes, I would tell myself that I would totally survive when in the midst of an apocalypse. Then I would read books like Ashes and The Road and I would realize, 'Girl, you wouldn't even make five hours.'
Page: 122
Jim, the heck? The heck the heck the heck thehec k thecehekc tehc hekc
I'm nowhere close to finishing a forth of this book but I just know this book is going to make me think. It's going to make me question everything and god, I just want to read for entertainment, I'm not a philosophical person.
But honestly, what if? What would happen if an apocalypse came crashing down on us? And how? Will it be a natural disaster like in Ashfall where a volcano erupted? Or will it be caused by a spore-based infection like in The Last of Us? Or maybe scientists were developing a cure for cancer or some disease but it turned bad and the virus spread throughout the world and-
Frick, I'm scared. I mean, I've read some "survival guides" and stuff, but... There's not a lot of stuff I can take with me, that would help me survive. And if I actually manage to make it past five hours, I know I'm not going to last long because I would pack a lot of stuff with sentimental value...I think. I don't know, I'm trying to be realistic but maybe I won't even do that at all.
Alright, let's just say that I packed canned food, bottled water, some knives, a first aid kit, and some clothes. Where should I go first? The CVS that's 2 minutes away if I run, or the Kroger down the road past CVS. Will people be desperate enough to kill me already? To get more supplies and food to survive on.
BUT WAIT!! WHAT IF I KILL SOMEBODY?!??!?!
What would become of my mental/emotional state? Will I harden as a person, be cold and aloof and travel alone because of the horrors of my past? Or will I break down because oh, how can I live with the guilt??!?!?!
Page: 210
And mercy killings. Will I honestly be able to kill somebody so they don't have to go through the pain? Or will I ignore their pleas like Tom did.
"'Kill someone because he asked me to? A mercy killing?' Now Tom looked up. 'No. I know this will sound stupid, there's killing the enemy and then there's flat-out murder. There was this one guy in my squad, name was Crowe. He was all torn up. This EFP-explosively formed penetrator-blasted right through the Humvee and his helmet. Took out most of his face and half his skull. Didn't kill him, and when I got to him, he was conscious. So I was holding his hand, you know, telling him to hang on, and Crowe looked right at me-well, with the one eye that was left-and he said, clear as a bell, 'Kill me.' I heard him okay, but I pretended I didn't, so Crowe said it again and kept on until he passed out. One of his buddies went to see him later, and Crowe said 'You tell that son of a bitch Eden he fucked up.'" (Bick 210).
I mean, Tom killed Jim (Jim changed) and he insisted that he can do it again, but I'm with Alex. What if he can't? It's been weeks and he got pretty attached to the girls, will he be able to do it?
And that brings me to a question I have ever since I had read my first apocalyptic book. Why do people keep trying to suurrviiiveeughhhhh.
I mean honestly, you are now in a hellish world where people are dying and where people are killing and transforming into monstrous beings
Will I actually commit suicide when it becomes waaayyyy too much for me to handle or will I just lay down. Lay down and rest then get up then move on.
I dunno man, I mean I'm talking about apocalypses here, who the heck knows what would happen.
So, what are your thoughts?
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